It's friggin due on monday. stress stress stress!

Am gonna buy myself COD4: Modern Warfare after the bio paper. It's about time i got a decent game instead of LieroX, which would have been decent except that the ruddy ninja rope doesn't work, WHICH TAKES THE FUN OUTTA THE WHOLE GAME!! At least the reviews for COD4 have been mostly positive, and my Mac should be able to run it (:

is a little lost now. Hope tmr's game goes alright :/

Psuedo-post As has been an exciting tiring affair (: It was nice seeing the juniors (those who were there at least) at training on monday, and refreshing on the 3 man drill. Looking forward to training tomorrow with them and the rest of the batch. Managed to grab some stuff for the proms at a steal today off Robinsons (: I think it looks pretty decent, i hope it does.

Oh yes, finally bought Joshua Redman's Elastic Band CD, after waiting for it for half a year. Their chemistry is just plain amazing.

I'm tired and thus dont have much to say, but i think life's a blur now.

after perusing through emails, old emails we sent while i was in cambridge, the time where u actually cared and were a friend (in the real sense of the word, not used loosely) i can only conclude most good things come to an end. This one did.

it was a tragedy of sorts. Essentially, policies didn't come out. NONE at all! Which equals a hamstrung dng. crap. I can only but trust Him to do that which i cannot. And of course hope that the bell curve turns out in my favour. Right now, the prospect of a B is quite real. Nightmare, i tell you.

4 more papers to go. 3 before the long break. 2 on Monday. 1 day before the next.
Let's go chumps (:

 and we try to fit a man into a God-sized hole in our heart. Obviously that does not work. Not ever.

so we're halfway through. and next week is half the load of this week (: i like!

Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In ALL your ways, acknowledge Him and He WILL make your path straight (: This is a striking, hard-hitting truth.

 Awesome. FOund the Navy SEAL workout plan online, which i shall attempt to start the week of the 23rd (: already, the first week is madness ><

A levels in 9 days. Econs BIo Econs Bio :/ am looking forward to the 23, which is in 3 weeks (: 

Prayer is an exercise of faith, a strong exercise. Gotta continue to put my faith in Him and look towards Him (:

hasn't passed, unlike what i thought. irritating.

 am falling in love with the Metheny/Mehldau CD that i got at the start of they year! (: somehow even after 1 year of listening to it, i never really appreciated some of the songs written inside. I like (: Pat's solo on 'A Night Away' almost made me cry >< 

but for more serious stuff, its about 13 days to As? not feeling as nervous as i think i should be. And i does not feel ready, esp wtih a big bio paper 2 on day 2, AFTER gp >< i hope i have the strength to last thru, i REALLY REALLY NEED the stamina. LAst few days have been distant far away from Him. 

 Today, I carved a pumpkin for Halloween. I thought it would be cool to carve my name, and have it shine through onto the wall behind it. I figured that if I carved my name backwards then it would show up correct on the wall. My name's Lana and now my wall says Anal. 

WIN this is called zi4 zuo4 cong1 min2

 iz almost no more chains. iz almost free. iz need sleep. zzzzz (:

One of the wittiest LOLcat pictures I've seen HAHAHA (: icanhascheezburger.com is even better than FML!

 Josh McDowell's More Than A Carpenter is a compelling read. I couldn't study the whole day after reading it, and i finally realised why. I guess we recognise him as a Lord, a Saviour, a Redeemer, but few of us can say he is MY Lord, MY Saviour, My Redeemer, My Rock and my Fortress. And we don't give him the due erm (i don't know what the word for this is) as his deity deserves. And it makes me want to find out who My Saviour and Lord really is, as a person. 

Alpha Beta Gamma Delta Epsilon Zeta Eta Theta Iota Kappa Lambda Mu Nu Xi Oomicron Pi Rho Sigma Tau Upsilon Phi Chi Psi Omega
Yay i can rmb the Greek alphabet :D

 I miss the badminton courts, very badly. Miss the 6-9pm Monday nights, and all the Monday badminton people. A hodge-podge collection of people, brought together by this beautiful game (: 

A levels, plees bee ovur suun!!

 i shall attempt a strict regimen of early sleep (11plus), with QT, followed by early morning exercise (or evening) and the whole day mugging. I SHALL TRY. the Keyword is try. I'm still amazed i can run 5km without feeling like dropping dead! yay (:
Econs CS and Chem P3 tmr ><

The only consolation comes from finally achieving a (decent) result for Econs. The micro case study was a surprise, especially after the heart attack where i realised the teacher forgot to add in 5 marks >< On the other hand, the macro case study and the essays weren't that satisfactory. However, i believe that i still have some way to go, and with that, i'll make sure Econs shall end up with an A (:

Bio was a major disappointment, ( I can't believe i barely passed Paper 2 and got a 33/40 for MCQ) and the result was totally dissatisfactory.  

Chem, there's nothing to say except that the A (even though it's an A) is totally undeserved. Failing 2 out of 4 questions in Paper 3 for a grand total of 44.5/80 is SIMPLY UNACCEPTABLE. Sometimes it isn't about the A, but about the standard which you set yourself, the standard at which you consider yourself to have lived up to your potential. It's easy to confuse this with grade greediness, but i would've settled for an 80 or 83. A mark where 90% of all marks lost are those that i really deserved to lose, and not stupid mistakes like forgetting the facts and missing up finer details. 

I hope the SAT II campaign would go smoothly tomorrow, and may i bag 3 x 800 (:

it can be summed up in 3 words, "what's the point?"

i guess so long as each day, you make just one person's life better, even for a while, then you can consider that day a good day (:

downtrodden and burnt out. Stuck in reverse. Things i outta kick myself for. 4 weeks to buck up. Not that it would have mattered. Never would have. It's like an empty shell, hiding an automaton inside, mug sleep run swim SAT II do QT. Sum of stimuli > threshold potential, therefore, action potential has been triggered. Am need to snap out of this reverie, hate this.  

 Today was just awesome! Really appreciate every single one of the sms-es and fb wishes, the afternoon with Kenneth, dinner with Tat Wai, Nicky and Puah, and the BIG BIG BIG lj post from peach! (: Couldn't have asked for a better 18th. 

Doesn't change anything though, if at all, one is expected to act his age, or more. Pressing on toward the final goal this year to ace the As. Thank God, the A* crap hasn't kicked in yet! (: and on a random note, I've got rashes, and Muji is a NICE place to buy things like melon flavoured cream soda and small soft marshmallows. Speaking of marshmallows, i had this weird and wild idea of a REAL marshmallow pillow, that u can sleep on and take a bite out off when you're hungry. :S

rashes require steroid cream. Interesting.

Today, I learned that the gap between the elevator and the 6th floor landing of my apartment building is approximately one key's width wide. FML
gotta love the phrasing on this one :D

 half an hour of circuit PT is enough to kill, either that or highlight my lack of physcial fitness..my adductors are gonna hurt after the lunges lol...
Math tmr is making me jitery, especially P&C..i hate those...but i'll push on anyway! :D

Today, I was locked out my car because I accidentally left the car keys in the car. I ask my little brother for a suggestion. What does he do? He throws a rock through the window and says "Problem solved." FML 

it's on cold rainy days like this that the memories come flooding back and make me reminisce...

tmr's econs, i'm all jittery and psyched up at the same time, eager to be put to the test yet afraid to slump again. I'll do it, I'll walk through the fire, if this is what it takes to take me even higher! (:

believe in yourself that you'll score what you want to, because you, of all people, can do it... (:

35 laps makes for a good way to work off the frustration of a horrible chem paper. All de time trialling has gone to de waste. Aiya, i shall make sure I gain ground in paper 2 and 1 :/ 
Econs is in 1.5 days, I need to get at least a B. Or that is the minimum standard i set for myself rather. Just like how i fell short of my own standard today. I never really is about how well you do compared to others, but about living up to the standard which you know you are perfectly capable off.
Chlorine in the pool smells way way off ~wrinkles nose in disgust~
Already, the first 11 verses of Philippians is proving to be harder than i thought, so many layers and so many questions to ask. I like (:

how practical is it to "live for others, before yourself"?